I Am A Whore Dressed As A Pastor's Daughter
Since my mom is the Pastor in our
little Christian Church, she wants me to be everywhere in it. In the
Music Ministry (where I am now a Worship Leader), in the Youth Ministry
(I am the secretary of the Youth Ministry), and even the Main Church
itself (she forced me to go to Bible School to be a Preacher at a very
young age).
Now here's the catch - I NEVER
WANTED ANY OF THIS. She always makes me do things I don't want to do. I
always have to be holy when in church, the real me is crazy as fuck. I
want to tell my mom that she can't be doing this to me. I just don't
want to hurt her feelings and leave her.
I've had guys I had fun with before,
but everytime I go to church - worshipping and preaching about the word
of God, I KNOW IT DOES NOT FEEL RIGHT.
All of this made me feel worthless. I'm not worthy of God, at the same time, I'm not even true to myself.
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