Open Letter To God

I get it alright. You run my life the way you want and I've got no say in it. You want me broken and begging at your feet for mercy. Helpless and hopeless. Why? I never did anything bad to anyone. Always lived by the rules, never even asked for anything, be it riches, possession or fame. All I wanted was a peaceful existence. But looks like you don't approve. Finally after a year of begging you for mercy I have learned today that you no longer care. Now I realize this and will not disturb you anymore. I no longer wish for your help out of a this mess. I just need you to let me die on my own terms. Let me end things in peace. Let me sleep and never wake up again. Allow me peace in heaven or hell. 

Gudbye forever,

Your once loyal devotee

I'm So Confused Rightnow

I met this guy like 8 months ago, like every other person we meet, then I just had a feeling we were going to end up together, we see each other on a regular although he stays a lil far, he's the first guy I'm going to like soo much and still talk to and it not falling out. When we are together we kiss and do all that mushy stuff and when he hasn't seen me for a while he would be all over me, telling me he misses me and all but theres one thing, he still hasn't asked me out yet and I wonder why, I drop hints most times and i don't want to ask directly, because I want to be with him he makes me so happy. But again I'm a Christian and he's Muslim and I don't know if thats like a major barrier to us ending up together.

He Used Me

Sometime in 2014 I lost my virginity to a guy I just met (I had a boyfriend). Months later things went sour between us and I broke up with my boyfriend too. I'm 20 years old now and still haven't gotten over the guy even though he's very indifferent about me now. I would say he used me.

I Pick My Nose And Eat It

I have been doing it since I was a kid. I know its disgusting. I keep it hidden so I assume no one knows. I'm a normally functioning adult, I'm in my 20s. I don't know what started it. Probably normal toddler curiosity. It just never went away. I suppose its sort of a compulsion. I do it at least once a day. Even when visiting my significant other, I just do it while I'm in the bathroom. Morning is the time of choice. But i'll do it whenever the urge strikes and I'm alone. 

I know a lot of people are going to find me disgusting. But supportive comments are certainly welcome

A Nuclear War

I lay on my back and look up at the clouds.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
A nuclear war is coming.
.
.
.
Enjoy life while you can.
Stop being angry. Stop thinking negative garbage.
Don’t waste your time being mean to others.
Enjoy your days. Make the most out of what you have.
.
.
.
.Even if there is no nuclear war. Pretend that there is one coming. and live life like your days are numbered.
Because , really, they are.
.
.
We all only have a certain amount of time in this world.
As you age, time speeds up.
Have some fun, have some good days before those days are gone.
.
If you box yourself up being a snide negative shit, you will only achieve a tangled view which will limit your vision
and hold you in revolving door cycle that goes nowhere
good.
.
.
Have a beautiful day!

.
.
.
Ahhh, clouds………..that one looks like a bunny.